Advent{ure} Season No. 2

And God said, “Let there be lights in the vault of the sky to separate the day from the night, and let them serve as signs to mark sacred times, and days and years… (Genesis 1:14 NIV)

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My sister, J. Gillian, with her surprise Christmas gift!

At times during this season, I have felt behind schedule. I didn’t decorate my house is one full swoop. I bought presents and wrapped them right up to and including December 24th. I could have berated myself, but a still, small voice, reminded me:

“It’s not too late.”

And my friend, Jody Collins’ voice, gently encouraged me,

“Start small. Start now.”

Earlier this year, Jody Collins announced that she was publishing a book to guide us into the Christmas season. To slow down the rush, to re-calibrate with a different calendar, to observe sacred days with a new sense of wonder. I had the honor of being part of Jody’s launch team, so I read her book early, and it set my inner compass. Her words kept the holiday season from overwhelming me.

A few weeks ago…

I planned to write regular posts during Advent to reflect on this season. To rekindle a sense of adventure in the cold, dark nights of winter was my intent. Instead, I chose to live in the moments. Asking the Creator of the Universe how to celebrate this particular sacred time, over and over, as the days unfolded.

One morning, my sister and I were talking about what kind of things could stave off boredom in our lives. We recalled pursuits that brought us joy.We thought about how play could be incorporated into our lives to push back the blues of winter.

On a cold, wintry day, my friend and I strolled through the Botanical Gardens. We turned off the path into a warming meander through the Climatron. She remembered how her sister had wanted to go to film school. I shared my recent insight, “It’s not too late.” Maybe her sister could still go to film school. We both felt a lift in our spirits, just thinking about the possibility of doing something now, starting small, but not giving up on our dreams.

Some time earlier this year . . .

I believed that I had achieved most of my dreams. I finished my English degree in 2011, and at the same time self-published a little book of devotions. The past several years, my husband and I have traveled on our little boat, a dream come true, a dream we didn’t even know we had until we bought the boat. I imagined our sons growing up, and leading successful lives. And they are living happy, successful and love-filled lives. I often thought about opening a small coffee shop, which hasn’t come to be, but I do have a coffee machine, and a home art studio/classroom. Space where we come together and build community and share our hopes and dreams.

As I pondered these dreams, I had a sinking feeling that I didn’t have any more dreams to fulfill. Then I thought again. A dream for happiness, a dream for love, a dream for sharing life with others, a dream of trying something new, or a dream of rekindling an old love may seem impossible. But as I pondered anew, what it meant to dream, my hopes soared.

This year . . .

I have had the joy of witnessing a handful of friends bring their dream to life. Each one followed a similar path, a path to self-publish a book. And their tenacity and hope, kindled in me a desire to re-publish my little book on createspace.

It’s not too late. Check out these labors of love, and cherished dreams:

Jody Lee Collins (Living the Season Well: Reclaiming Christmas)

Cecelia Lester (Times of Trouble Bring Rays of Joy: Thoughts of God and His Word)

Dawn Paoletta (Journaling for Discovery and Delight: Creative Journal Prompts for Your Journey)

A. R. Stanley (Dandelion Jane: Strawberry Jelly)

And my little dream . . .

Kel Rohlf (Defining Moments: Overflowing with Living Words)

 

Cereal No. 4

For which of you, intending to build a tower, does not sit down first and count the cost, whether he has enough to finish it— (Luke 14:28 NKJV)

Calculation

The mother noticed that her girl was gaining weight despite her birdlike eating habits. She also noticed that the box of saltines was missing from the pantry. She kept close account of her pantry. The evidence was adding up, but the mother didn’t want to believe the possible answer.

Should she confront her daughter, then she would have to disclose her knowledge to her husband. Maybe if she just waited, things would work themselves out. But, to be sure, something was amiss.

The girl was working out some of her own calculations. If she told her mother about her condition, then her father would be included in the discussion. If you could call it a discussion; he still regarded her as a nuisance to be avoided. The only time he paid any attention to her was when he was good and drunk.

Then he would get semi-interested. He would come into her room and watch her sleeping. She knew this because she wasn’t really sleeping; just pretending. She would hear him sigh, and sometimes she thought she heard him quietly sobbing. But that couldn’t be true, he could care less about her. Or so she thought.

Anyways, she couldn’t tell her mother. She would try to talk her out of keeping the baby. And she really didn’t believe her father would care one way or the other. She had a better plan. She would escape.

The railroad was south of their property. As kids, she and the neighbor boy, used to hike down through the woods and across the county line to flatten pennies on the track. They would carefully place a few pennies on the rail, and then wait. And wait. The train never did come while they were waiting.

They would get bored, and then go play hide and seek in the woods. The next day, they would hike back and the pennies were gone. They speculated that the pennies were stolen by Indians or the train was so fast that the pennies stuck to the wheels instead of the track. Either way, their penny flattening adventures were always a bust. But this time her adventure was going to be grand, she just knew it.

With a baby on the way, and a train to hop, she was going to the city. She would pack her knapsack with saltines and fill the old army canteen with water. Her mother kept some cash in an old tin can in the back of the pantry. She would just borrow it, and then someday pay her mother back.

She had heard of hobos traveling across the country to get work. Maybe some nice hobo would help her find her way. She figured she’d go east towards the Big Apple. If she couldn’t make it that far, there had to be a lesser city where she could start her new life.

She had a plan. She would leave Saturday night, after her parents returned from the tavern, and when the train most likely would be going through the woods.

But before she left, she had one more thing to do.

Jubilee: A Season of Celebration

Increase our faith! (Matthew 17:5b)

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In thirty-five days, I begin my year of jubilee. In forty-five days, we will be celebrating the marriage of my son to his bride.

In this lull before the wedding, I’ve been tending our little garden plot.

Last year, my son and I embarked on this project of fencing off some of the yard for him to plant a salsa garden and for me to experiment with other vegetables. We even tried our hand at growing strawberries in a gutter along the top of our fence.

Peppers, tomatoes and onions yielded spicy salsa. I harvested radishes, beans, lettuce, spinach and two spaghetti squash. The strawberries were a bust.

This year, I knew he would not have time to garden. He’s preparing for his wedding day and beginning a new season of life. I haven’t had much desire to process all the emotions that are crashing against this mother’s heart, but I am proud of him, and happy for him and his soon to be wife.

When I don’t know what to do with my feelings, or my life for that matter, I do what I know.

I know gardening. So, I visited the garden plot. I began the process of clearing the land. Pulling and piling the weeds to discard. Plunging the shovel into the soil, turning the soil over, wiping sweat from my brow as I did. It felt good. I worked sections at a time, and by the end of the afternoon my back and legs hurt, but the effort yielded to the hope of what could be.

As I shoveled and raked and cultivated the soil, I heard voices over the fence. Two young boys were playing outside, laughing and running. I heard them holler, “Hi mom! Bye mom!”

I paused my shoveling, startled because the voices sounded like my sons at that age. And in the second that it took to hear that phrase, I winced and rejoiced at how fast our boys became young men.

Early yesterday morning, I returned to plant the garden. As I pressed seeds into the ground, it occurred to me how much of life takes faith.

Faith that a little seed becomes a seedling. That a seedling becomes a plant. A plant becomes a fruitful vine. And the fruitful vine bears seeds. And the pattern repeats. A woman bears a child. The child becomes a man. The man becomes a husband. And the rhythm repeats.

Embracing the seasons, celebrating life, and asking for an increase of faith, these practices offer me hope, as I approach this year of jubilee.

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Guest Post: About Finding with Lynn D. Morrissey

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 “‘You will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart. I will be found by you,’ declares the Lord.” —Jeremiah 29:13-14a

In keeping with my found theme this week, I have the joy of welcoming, my dear friend, Lynn D. Morrissey, as she invites us into her “lost and found” adventures, laced with unexpected discoveries and real life lessons.

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“Oh, no!” I shouted to my husband from the kitchen. “I found it!”

“Where was it?” Mike yelled back.

“On the kitchen counter right where I left it.”

Normally I would have been elated to find the *third* cell-phone I’d lost in less than a year, but my husband had also lost no time in replacing it with a more expensive model. The trouble was that just a day later, I had found the old phone. Ugh. I felt badly for wasting our money. A wayward sheet of paper had migrated 🙂 on top of the phone, obscuring it from sight. I hadn’t looked carefully enough.

When I was a child, my grandmother was fond of telling me, when I’d finally find something I’d lost after a tear-out-my-hair frantic search, “Lynn, if it had been a snake, it would have bitten you.” And she was right. Things were in front of me, but either I’d looked too carelessly or hurriedly, or else something had blocked my view. I had neither the patience to endure the search nor the right eyes to see.

I’ve thought lately about things lost and found. Our family has been doing some serious decluttering, a task I find singularly unpleasant and which I have postponed for years. I had no desire to rummage through boxes stored indiscreetly away, out of sight, out of mind, in dark basement hiding places. Still, God has impressed upon me that this must be done. It’s now or never!

I knew I needed a perspective pivot. So I asked God to give me the mind-set of an archeologist seeking buried treasure. I knew I’d need stamina and patience for the long-haul search and new eyes to detect the valuable among rubble. I call it heartsight. I needed God to open (what Paul calls) the “eyes of my heart.” With heartsight, you see differently and intuitively, developing the ability to see beneath the surface, to see treasure amid what others call trash.

And so it was with my subterranean excavation. Down-under in the basement, I found some things that I thought I’d lost; but because I’d asked God for heartsight, amazingly, I also found things I didn’t even know I’d lost—new discoveries among old detritus!

I found a letter to childhood friend I’d penned when we moved from our old neighborhood. I’d no idea I’d written this, but it now became a window to my twelve-year-old soul. On a piece of crumpled construction paper, which I presumed was debris, I found my kindergarten interpretation of George Washington and that infamous cherry tree, rendered in bold crayon strokes. I found a two-inch cardboard “Bible” my grandmother had given me as a souvenir that I don’t remember ever seeing and my Sunday-School graduation certificate. I unearthed more finds too numerous to relay.

But the most meaningful discovery of all was hidden among a large stack of my father’s old college papers, which I’d almost discarded. Something prompted me to separate each one, scanning them slowly, sharpening my vision. What I found was staggering. Amid notes on calculus, history, biology, and music, was a single-spaced typewritten sheet that my father had composed for some kind of religion class. But this was more than an assignment. It was a strong statement of his faith in Christ and how his teen-age friend had witnessed to him about the Gospel. My tears flowed. There had been times when I doubted my father’s faith, but before Daddy died, several circumstances converged to give me hope that he knew the Lord. Now, I read my father’s remarkable testimony in his own words. Had I not had persistence to find treasure, had I not eyes to see, I would have lost this resounding assurance.

There are so many ways we can develop heartsight, so many ways we can sift through junk to find gems, to sort through the excess to unveil the exquisite.

And in my circuitous way, this brings me full-circle to Kel’s request to share what we in the journaling biz call “found poems.” To create these requires heartsight—a sifting through strings of words for pearls of wisdom. When we’re willing to “lose” the words we don’t need, we find personal meaning and inspiration in the process.

Here’s how you do it: Select a text and photocopy it. It may be something that you have written, prose from a book, text from a newspaper, or even another poem. Read through words not for meaning in how they are connected, but rather in terms of how they resonate. Underline *in pencil* those that speak intuitively to you in the moment. You may underscore single words or word phrases. “Lose” whole sentences, or even paragraphs, and find only words that make your soul sing. Go back and read through those underlined, seeing if they speak to you. If the message doesn’t seem sensical, you can always erase and underline different words. But usually, you won’t have to. Once your decisions are final, highlight your chosen words with colored pencil or box them in ink. Voilà! You’ve found your poem. Though it’s easy to read just the highlighted words, I like to transcribe them with line breaks as you would any poem.

I’ve taken the liberty of showing you my found poem, titled “All-Pervasive August,” which I composed from words I found on pages 49-50 in Anne Morrow Lindbergh’s classic Gift from the Sea. Actually, I started with p. 50 and worked backwards to p. 49 just to mix things up. Obviously, I don’t take total credit for the poem, because the words were inspired by Lindbergh and the creativity by God. But the process of finding the poem, rather than my creating it from scratch, spurred heartsight, opening my eyes to new thoughts and surprising juxtapositions I wouldn’t have coupled together otherwise. Here’s the poem. Meet me on the other side, and I’ll tell you what it means to me.

 

All-Pervasive August

by Lynn D. Morrissey (condensed from text by Anne Morrow Lindbergh)

Accepted expedition,
time is inviolable when being alone.
[Those] who practice it like a secret—
the most important times in one’s life,
alone to create,
the writer, to pray—
women need the indispensable center,
that inner stillness.
Key to the problem in their demand, [are]
time and energy,
inner convictions of outer pressures as invisible,
as all-pervasive as high humidity
on an August afternoon.

What this found poem teaches me is that how I spend my time can become an exhilarating expedition for exploring God’s goodness, beauty, and joy. When I don’t take this for granted, then I will carve out solitude with Him. It will be our intimate secret, just between God and me, as I make inviolable this time alone with Him . . . to create and to write, which for me is often prayer. My “indispensable center,” my soul, where I commune in stillness with God, must be sacrosanct. Though I know this, I allow my time and energy to become threatened by my own inner convictions that the outer pressures in my life are more important than time set apart with God. If I’m not careful, then these invisible forces, though real and sometimes menacing, will become all-pervasive as high humidity on an August afternoon.

I love these lessons God taught me in such an unexpected way. And isn’t this what God-centered creativity is all about—having eyes to find new insights, as we awaken from complacency to behold beauty in hidden places, ultimately to find God Himself?

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Lynn D. Morrissey, is a Certified Journal Facilitator (CJF), founder of Heartsight Journaling, a ministry for reflective journal-writing, author of Love Letters to God: Deeper Intimacy through Written Prayer and other books, contributor to numerous bestsellers, an AWSA and CLASS speaker, and professional soloist. She and her beloved husband, Michael, have been married since 1975 and have a college-age daughter, Sheridan. They live in St. Louis, Missouri.

A Defining Moment (or two) and RJD Link-UP!

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Thank [God] in everything [no matter what the circumstances may be, be thankful and give thanks], for this is the will of God for you [who are] in Christ Jesus [the Revealer and Mediator of that will]. (I Thessalonians 5:18 AMP)

I am so thankful that Dawn and Susie dreamed up and acted upon the idea of Random Journal Day! I have been occupied with running the marathon of Lent and Life this past week. Filling my days with running (because I am training for a longer race this year),spending time with family and friends and sharing my passion for personal discovery through art+journaling.

To pause here today feels good. To celebrate and catch my breath before heading out to the culmination of much prayer and preparation for a day retreat. To share the day with twenty or so other women exploring our emotions with Tracy Flori, life coach extraordinaire, and yours truly lauding the benefits of journaling and collaging as a means to process life.

I pulled out TWO random journals to share ideas with the retreat ladies, and then I remembered it was Random Journal Day! The first journal was from February-March 2012, and I just happened to turn to a page about Lent and Adventure.

Random moment becomes a defining moment. A moment where I SEE how much God leads and loves me. Adventure is a word that runs through my veins, and apparently I have been mulling it over for some time. Here are some questions I scribbled at the bottom of the page:

What is appealing about adventure? What is daunting? What feelings does the word evoke? Why is adventure such an [enticing] invitation? Can the the mundane, routine life be considered an adventure? Why or why not?

I think it would be interesting for me to actually answer these questions in my current journal! Will you join me?

The second random page I turned to was an affirmation from God about another passion of mine:

DEFINTIONS!!!

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The second random page I turned to was an affirmation from God to keep pursuing writing:

I found the page where I committed to publishing my devotions. Tracy Flori coached me through my goal setting and it was a lovely dream come true. However, that little book has been collecting dust. And I think God may be nudging me to promote it again. So here goes.

You can click here to read a sample chapter and purchase this little gem. 🙂

The adventure continues and God delights in our discoveries!

What is God nudging you to do today?